Considering my blog is yet to actually develop a topic, I figured I share one that hits close to home for me and several other Americans.
Each year over 44,000 individuals take their lives to suicide. Making this the tenth leading killer in the world.
In February I found out someone extremely close to me was one of the statistics. The emotion’s, are unexplainable and over time I’m just realizing it’s ok to not be ok.
Although most who read this have most likely never experienced this happen (which is a really good thing), I’m sure you know someone who has or possibly have yourself, which is why I’m writing this.
I’ve learned that there are so many stages to how you feel during this phase. I’ve been in denial, sad, guilt ridden, anxious, and angry. I’ve found that even your friends and family don’t always understand what you’re going through. But do cherish those who understand. For me that’s my mother.
I was the recipient of the suicide letter. My heart has never stopped for as long as it did the day I received it. My initial reaction was to burn it and never see it again, but those feeling changed after about two weeks and now I have it in a book on my shelf.
In my situation, there was no closure of a funeral. If that is the case or if you feel that isn’t the best way for you to get closure think of something else. I’m traveling (posts to come) to my persons favorite places in Virginia. Along with me will be a burned letter in the form of ashes and seeds to plant a tree in their honor.
Last, but most importantly, don’t EVER be afraid to get help. This goes for if you feel suicidal or depressed, or if you lost someone to suicide. Someone is always there. I can personally tell you that I have gotten help for my own depression with my chronic pain, and am also receiving it to deal with the guilt and grief of this event. The stigma needs to be removed!
Although some may feel that taking their life relieves their loved ones from having a burden, it’s actually harder on your loved one to see you go. And once your life is gone, you can’t change your mind and come back.
If you feel suicidal, or someone you know please dial the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Someone is always there to listen.
On another note, I figured I’d add some tips and tricks to cope during a difficult time:
• Painting (if you are artistically challenged like me there is such thing as painting by numbers. super easy)
• Any form of exercise
• Petting an animal
Although different from some of my blog posts, I hope this helps someone out there. Be back soon, and I’ll be blogging about my trip when I go in a month.